#Hair Lessons #Life Goals

It weighs you down, cut it off.

but really really hard to let go ... more than a decade that ive worn my hair long.  this was the last shot, at the office, that really, really stressful Wednesday.

Loveblendin'

Back at it ... waxing poetry in my secret room ... on Valentines day,

Sayin' Grace

I really think I've moved on from .... i still dine at Mary Grace's without slipping notes, recalling all the broken promises, waxing all that drama --- it's jusz me, my hectic sked and good food. Bliss.

... it's actually about the table.  I deliberately avoided the ones with the glass tops, you  know, those ones with the teeny weeny spaces, just enuff for you to squeeze in that brown stationery and all your emotional baggage written all over it screamin like everything just happened that night you discovered all their pedicured photos posted in Facebook Thanksgiving Day 2011.  That was massive dishonesty, I tell you.  Lesson I've taken all my life.  I was a totally different person after that. It was that war I went to ... and changed me.

shallow

http://irmavanta.tumblr.com/post/156711828789/smartbadarse-yung-nakikita-mo-pero-di-nya

Try to make some sense naman, and please your manicured musings about your love, your life, your happiness, blah, blah, blah makes me puke arrgghhh

The Land of Oz

I missed them this one time, at 46, still that tryst with really profoundly painful freakin menstrual cramps - you know that kind you have to call in sick when you have a mountain of back logs in your desk, what the F! yes, and that kind, too that ruins your date with old friends, from Gapo and high school.

The village doctor is suspecting endometriosis.   I am now overdue with my Ob Gyne.

.......

and so yesterday was the only time I got ...to say hi, to say thanks and how you been ... sorry that i missed the time with you  guys ...

so we talked about dognuts reunion in sydney ... leveling up ... that sound lyke a plan ...

and so out of the blue ... it went down to this thread ... oh mayne, the memories of you i keep ... these was all that you left me ...

Me:
"Remember nold ... that time ... with that guy ... i wanted to go to sydney and jump ship to houston. Teene d b"


Nold:

oh dear. hehehe. tangina talaga. hahaha.

this made me laugh"

smh

... this was how i remember you.

Sorry. No. Bee. Leave me alone! Iridescent. Whole landscape. And that last line ...

(jusz becoz I've been watchin' re-run of my forever favorite movies.  it's a long holiday.  only be back for office on the 3rd.  the last two days were Notting Hill, Chasing Liberty and Dirty Dancing:  Havana Nights.  earlier today was A walk to Remember. and then this.  I loved this movie so much that this was the third time I was writing about it.  The first time was a reference.  The second time was a few months after that tragedy.  This, the third, I drafted 5 - 6 years ago.  I just thought, may be the timing's perfect, it get's posted in its original form, I am retaining the title, too.

I don't even remember why i wrote it this way.  I took the lines and placed them not in the same order as they were in the book or in the film.  I took the words for the title, key words, to remind this writer why she wrote it this way.

'Must say, I still love happy endings tho, especially, in the movies.)


Bryce Loski: Juli, I'm sorry.
Juli Baker: No. You're not.

Garrett: Hey! Have you flipped? Whats the matter with you?

Garrett: Are you freaking mental? Juli Baker? You hate her.
Bryce Loski: That's whats so weird, I don't think I do.

Bryce Loski: There was a... bee in her hair.
Dana Tressler: There's no bee.

[Bryce enters the second grade classroom]
Young Juli: Bryce! You're here!
[runs up and tries to hug him]

Juli Baker: Bryce, you should come up here. It's so beautiful.

Bryce Loski: All I ever wanted was for Juli Baker to leave me alone.

Juli Baker: His hair smelled just like watermelon.

Chet Duncan: Some of us get dipped in flat, some in satin, some in gloss; but every once in a while, you find someone who's iridescent, and once you do, nothing will ever compare.

Juli Baker: I guess it's something about his eyes or maybe his smile.
Richard Baker: And what about him?
Juli Baker: What?
Richard Baker: You have to look at the whole landscape.
Juli Baker: What does that mean?
Richard Baker: A painting is more then the sum of it's parts. A cow by itself is just A cow. A meadow by itself is just grass, flowers. And the sun picking through the trees, is just a beam of light. But you put them all together and it can be magic.

Bryce Loski: Flat, glossy, iridescent? What the hell does that mean? Juli Baker has always seem plain to me. Until now.

Dana Tressler: The only bee your attracting is B-R-Y-C-E. I'm telling you, that boy is lost in Loveland.

Bryce Loski: The way she ignore me was a constant reminder that I've been a jerk.

... another dream ... another Christmas ...

.... because i want to see you ...