here's a bunchies ...

one month and still ... :(

Alice Blue Facebook October 2015

Damn FB Freakin me out!!!  This account has been deactivated for the longest time.  Then suddenly I'm getting notifications for comments and messages ...  suddenly Alice Blue is on air ... and it is ... WTF!

Destine's Will's fault ... he got me into this second account.  But that's water under the bridge.  I put everything else behind us now, Destine and Will.  I've crossed over since then. Gone back.  Old loves.

Excuse me ... adik lang po sa pag deaktivate at mamblock pero indi naman ako si madame chekwang schizo para madameng papalit palit na fb acounts hehe ... 

Facebook* October 2015

hindi pa kaya ... hindi pa din kaya ... minsan iniisip ko sana ... noon pa na block mo na lang ako ... nakatulong ka pa ...not because you cared about me  (knowing you never did) ... just may be doing your batchmate a little favor ... sana lang ... but even that it's quite late by now.

goin down, closin down

*kaya ayokong bumabalik sa FB eh, naiinis ako sa yo, kasi mamimiss lang kita lalo tapos wala naman katuturan yon ... ang ending magagalit na naman ako sa sarili.   

x

Tuesday night, or was that Wednesday before the break of dawn. Twas barely 2 Am, you woke me, I ended up coughing my lungs out.

I cut ties with everyone.  Just as planned so I did.  You, and your cold knife.  Me an all fucked  up fool.  eHs.

Minsan na nga lang ako managinip.  Ganito pa.

On my way home, Wednesday night.   Another bus ride.  And that scene in my head playing over and over again,  like I was centerfold in my little dream novel.  Tearfully triggering asthma.

Thursday evening running late for home.  and close to bringing myself to DLSUMC ER.

Friday morn.  officially sick ageyn.  facebook revived temporarily.
(dang, how could you be oh soooo sweet, and caring, and thougthful and all that ---  you jusz know exactly when and where to hit me huh ... go for the kill baby go!)
   

grateful still

Of course, I am grateful.  When people are nice to me, do nice things for me. of course, I recognize and appreciate their kind, sweet gestures.  Ang ingrata ko naman if I'd be mean to people who do me favors.

Then again, let's not lose sight of the shore. Let's put things in the right context,  uhhmmm, in their proper places, too.

People who do nice things is different from really nice people.  I mean, these two are from different tribes.  Or, in "logic" terms,  not all people who are sugar, spice and everything nice are good people.  On the other hand, in terms of "universal truths",  all nice people are sincerely willing and able to be nurturing, do nice, great things and stuff ... and sustain it even.

We know for a fact that there are intentions and reasons, factors, situations and all the justifications etc etc behind nice things.  Some people thrive on this.  The good seeds with their right hearts  in placed, they marvel on  kindness, righteousness, principles, values, sometimes circumstances make things harder, complicated, a painful process ...  but they do good anyway.

I'm writing this because I was asked a question.  My answer was fast and firm.  This ...

I'd rather be in company of nice, good people.  I am sure they'd do nice, good, kind, sweet things and more for me.  Guaranteed.  The other kind, with all the fancy, pompous blah blah, nothing but flimsy.

grateful still.

Baby ko

Missing our baby.  Namiss ko na to katabi matulog  kahit 3AM nagigising for milk at 5 AM pa ulit matutulog :-)  I think am gonna buy this little lady a cowgirl dress for the Halloween.

SLUMBER MODE

thumb suck and leg swings (mana sa tita ... pampatulog hihi) ...

... alam na ang kasunod na eksena.  ayus di ba. :)

lucky teddy

partners in crime

PLAYTIME

ain't she a hungry baby

brush on baby brush on

naglalaro, nakaduster haha .... our baby's busy in her play area, her most fave spot in the house 

FAMILY BONDING

my 45th bday celeb with fam ... some strollin' (pig out dinin, a little shoppin and plenty of Hailey hihi) @Ayala Malls Serin, Tagaytay City

oh my the weight of those cheeks (and chin), too

she's a happy baby, doesn't get overwhelmed too easily 

Hail our Hailey!  Here hugging her daddy as we celebrate her 1st bday party last May at McDo, Tanza. 

photobomb gulong gulong while mommy doin her regular dose of selfie hehe

haha eto sakto ... irita si Hailey sa outfit ni Ate Sophie.  Ate Sophie's mom (ME!!!!) mas irita!!!

MANA SA TITA IRMA ;-)

Tita started with storybooks, too :) 

Such a haven for our Hailey. Cafe Mary Grace in Greenbelt 2 --- a comfy, roomy playpen with lotsa toys and BOOKS! 

a book in hand ... and that (naughty) look up to no good --- so very Tita Irmay-ish

Alice Blue**

Lyke hotcakes ;-) ... jusz uploaded some of my recent selfies in a new album I'm calling, Alice Blue (comin' after my photo album, Unpretty) ... guess where .... Facebook*.



*still my reliable repository of memories, yeah, that's it ... repository, all that.

Mostly taken in my office, sa hotels,  sa Flower Farm sa Tagaytay, pati na sa waxing salon ... actually kung saan saan haha ... cute ni rubber duckie ...

**Wikipedia says, This particular shade of blue is also referred as white-blue (or blue-white) and ice/icy blue, due to its very pale coloration which includes a hint of green— as does actual ice.  is a pale tint of azure that was favored by Alice Roosevelt Longworth, daughter of Theodore Roosevelt, which sparked a fashion sensation in the United States.  The hit song "Alice Blue Gown", inspired by Longworth's signature gown, premiered in Harry Tierney's 1919 Broadway musicalIrene. 

On its 25th founding anniversary, CITEM gave away Alice Blue handmade soy candles.  I got one.  

This writer's, one too many monickers, in fact one of her favorites.   If I'd have one more daughter, I'd name her, Alice Blue.