I woke up choking, consecutively for ...
It got Sophie worried.
Mornings I woke up, my eyes swollen.
She asked why.
"Kinagat ng ipis," sabi ko.
(what a lame excuse, Im under-estimating my daughter's intelligence :) ).
I thought it was hormonal. Me and my bad period.
Or must be the moon. The equinox of autumn.
I went to YM, and read back. We had our fears but we were so happy. I was so happy. Those threads, they (still) feel like honey-glazed knives.
This week, last year. We broke up.
I like to remember things my own way. how i remembered them, not necessarily the way they happened. I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. My DeLicioUs ambiguity.
... my other garden ;)
About Me
- Irma
- I'm not a graceful person. I'm not a Sunday morning or a Friday sunset. I am a Tuesday 2AM, I am gunshots muffled by a few city blocks, I am a broken window during February. My bones crack on a nightly basis. I fall from elegance with a dull thud, and I apologize for my awkward sadness. I sometimes believe that I don't belong around people, that I belong to all the leap days that didn't happen. The way light and darkness mix under my skin has become a storm. You don't see the lightning, but you hear the echoes.
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