The perks of not falling in love with your best bud ... and the silly thoughts running around my head i couldn't tell him

under the weather.  it's been 3 days.  yeah, i saw the jump shot. i knew about the birthday dance.  and the wacky pose by the turkey.  her friends doing the rounds --- they make sure it gets to me.  and and he's got the right to life like anyone of us.  let him get a piece of happy.  well,  she's got big tummy.   she must be pregnant.  lam mo naman yun, toro, manyakis, hump.  he loves sex. and sex must be really good for the last 22 months or so. :)  ... who knows finally, he's gonna get his baby girl.   so allow me to quote myself  "Your thoughts can hurt you.  But those are imaginations until you see a picture?'"

*** 
of course, i couldn't tell him what's been going around my head these days.  of course, i was pretending to be alright.  gusto ko lang kausap.  o kwentuhan nya ako kahit ano.  may be more about the e heads concert in Singapore.Or may be his son's josh painting expeditions hehe.  his london segues ;).  anything.

there's always a trigger.  messy hair, messy head.  i went home early.  trekked moa.  did some modest shopping.  pimped my brows and wore Kate Moss.  finally, bribed myself with Starbucks' signature choc'
late drink cold version.

at least my voice didnt break at the other end of the line.  sanay na ako.  i am the world's most bankable best actress LOL

basta  kanina, i just needed somebody else's voice other than mine ... the one's  speakin' in my head ... the one's that hurt so bad.

thank you for being my prozac this morning.  you know i love you, the way i always do, though not exactly, the way you wanted me to.  am sure you feel better, am sure you get my point now ... you never had me, but you never lost me. isn't  that wonderful.

Plate Breaker!

oh my, the things we broke ... and wish we didn't ... and yet we did. ... or wish they were really jusz plates ... the things we jusz broke.


*** *** ***

Everybody plays the fool, they say.

I break plates, too.  Ahuh ... seriously, i do ...

dapat dito tamang tipsy lang --- dyahe naman kung binuhos mo na lahat ng inis mo, eh hindi pa din umabot sa wall ang plato ahaha ... hindi ako sporty ... hindi ako magaling bumato ... magaling lang ako mag walk out --- in character sobra lol.

TAKSYAPO!!!!!

ilang plato ba ang dapat ubusin?  a mountain of broken plates represents a mountain of angst, frustration, pain, sadness, guilt  --- andameng galit na tao ---  a whole lifetime spent.

Kitch Witch Diaries: gastronomically orgasmic :)

Odette's home, brandishing her strength all over Central Luzon, Metro Manila and dirty South babyyy!  Flooded all over, so me and Soph had to stay home on a Monday.  Pag pasok ko sa office, ang back log ko up to my neckline hayyyy  ... to make matters worst (on a Monday), our gutter just above my bedroom gave in ... so ayokong ng mainis, what can I do, force majeure eh.  Others are having a bad day far worse than mine, so I shouldn't be too ingrata to complaint.  I insisted to go out, buy a new mouse for my desktop, and got Revlon's moon candy on my toes  to match my French manicure.

So now what? I don't wanna get caught dead wearing boredom so am gonna try to get back to my old trade :) ... bringin it on my gypsytales ... I used to be addicted to this in Friendster ... uso lang ... I always come home looking forward to some new surveys  to be tried on, and honesty had its sense of humor, sometimes painful, too

This one, like the others, is neatly, quietly archived @ http://lilladanes.blogspot.com.   It’s interesting how familiar and how different my answers fared up against the same survey.  And I think I like this woman now ;) … still naughty, but more sober, stubborn yet mellowed a great deal … still with poor eating habits  but twas a miracle to get her into cooking and lovin’ it.

Here's a taste of me ...

1.fave street food/s?  i don't usually eat street foods but when i do, must be ... all sorts of kakanin, bbqs ...                      

2.fave pasta? basta red sauce ... and and i cook  one hell of a good 'paghetti  must say ... red sauce and sardines :)

3.fave food pag summer? ice cream anytime (kahit tag-ulan pa yan)

4.fave food pag umuulan? hot coffee, pandesal with Clara Ole's pineapple jam 

5.fave food pag nanonood ng sine? ang sinehan walang kama, bawal pa magtaas ng legs, you cant watch 'em while wearin' boxers or undies lang, you cant rewind, fast forward, pause, and above all,  you watch your fave movies with strangers,  --- in other words i prefer to watch in the confines of my bedroom ... to answer the question ... hotdog bun with mustard LOL

6.fave shake? piñacolada hehe

7.fave night-out drink? lately cocktails ni Wenggay, all 500 of them LOL

8.favorite softdrinks? low cal, shugah free

9.fave food pag nasa beach? pag nasa beach, it's best  to get drunk in the sand hehe

10.fave drink/food pag galit? comfort drink ... hot chocolate ... i will try to go to places, dayuhin ko talaga, to get my hot choco

11.fave cuisine?  Mexican food

12.fave dessert? ice cream, cheese cake, choc'late cake

13.fave breakfast? kahit ano lang lately kasi i need to take my meds lang

14.fave kind of chocolate? spicy hot chocolate from Mary Grace and Max Brenner and and Starbucks' signature hot choco

15.fave food na iniihaw?  Meat …  bbqued

16. fave food na may sabaw? Sinigang na shrimp  as ever

17.gusto mong handa sa birthday mo? Anu ba … cocktail drinks ni wenggay hahaha … and my very own  signature fondant cake … flashback … my 41^st bday … got me Pippi Longstocking  

18.best place to have coffee?   Sa bahay, sa kwarto ko, while online … chatting, reading, blogging --- I love my cyber life!

19.saan sulit kumain pag gutom? Hongkong Chef, sa may CITEM J

20.best palaman sa tinapay?  Clara Ole’s pineapple jam and and and  I really can do a mean tuna spread … magastos pero masarap hayyy 

21.favorite ice cream flavor?  …. Nothing’s better than rockin’ road .. and selecta or magnum … and all those frozen stuff  @ swensens’

22.milo or ovaltine? I super love the scent of boiling tablea in my kitchen …

23.pagkain na hindi mo kakainin? anythin' exotic --- sawa, palaka, daga, arrrggg soooo gross … food presentation is important to me, ambience is a consideration, food handling, too --- im pretty bad at frying.  I cant seem to get a good estimate of the right amount of fire, giving  my centerpiece a balance tan J  --- nagprito ako ng tilapia  … it was too ugly, I couldn’t eat it.  They looked like “pretending to be dead” piranhas to me LOL

24.lagi ka bang gutom? Hardly … mostly I crave for cold stuff inside my mouth … that figures my insatiable desire for ice cream hehe

25.san ka willing mag spend para sa masarap na pagkain? good food, good company … basta gusto ko and kasama ko kahit sa bahay lang ayus na

26.anong pagkain ang gusto mo iuwi from lamay pero hindi pwede? O jeez, I don’t eat sa lamay

27.anong gusto mong pagkain sa lamay mo? I want it a celebration, cocktails  pa din wenggay ahaahah … and still,  my signature fondant cake … my memorial be like my  bday party, happy and intimate :) 

28.anong food ang ipagdadamot mo?  As I said, hindi ako madamot --- ang makakain ko di ko ipagdadamot, and di ko makakain lalo na hehehehe

29.sinong kilala mong kain ng kain pero hindi tumataba? Sa citem, my anakish  jhonalyn. Sa gma, my anakish,  Achi.  Parang mga growing boys kumain, ampapayat naman (me, tunog inggit ahaha)

30.eh diet ng diet pero hindi pumapayat? Haha same answer as before,  baka magalit---- si argee (shet am a fuckin' dead meat)

31.Anong sikat na pagkain sa lugar nyo?   Ginataan na bilo bilo bilo bilo kase puro bilo bilo lang talaga ahaha (miss ko tuloy ginataan bilobilo ng mama ko huhu)

32. Anong pagkain lagi mong pinupuslit?   All sweets --- my daughter always call my attention to watch my sugar … I always go, “eventually, this disease will kill me, sweets or no sweets … so id rather … “

33. Lagi mong hinihingi sa kaklase mo? Actually, I usually share my baon with my friends, I hardly ask for food or anything back then.

34. Gusto mong kainin ngayon na? ay... dapat ba edible ito ahahaha

35. Kung isa na lang kakainin mo sa buong buhay ano to? … can I not answer this literally ahaha … can I refer to something not edible lol … not that I wanna make a food chain out of him or … why not ;)

My 43rd bday choc'lates I got from Royal Duty Free Shop in Gapo.  I really like 'em, spicy choc'lates.  

Me will work for ice cream!

Some leftover pasta last New Year's Eve, sempre the sauce was first to go.  I turned it around into some Pasta De Sardinnes.  Favorite ng lahat ;) lalo ng anak ko. :)

My idea of breakfast.  Pandesal with pineapple jam, steamy coffee and Facebook. :)

April 2011.  A 41 year old woman gifts herself with a cake like this one.  Pippi Longstocking on moist choc'late ;)

Aerial buttview ;)

Bok Wenggay's famous cocktails @ her Bora garden ;)

tinkerbell so disappointed on me.  these smart ass really ugly cherry snappers (tilapya), i think they were just playing dead.  Jeezzz, hindi naman sa maarte ako, pero they really looked so disgusting to me, i couldnt and did not eat them.   Hayyyyy .... please teach me Frying 101, pleaseeeeeeee

some NJ faves --- NJ's bday today!

Nj V
‎"MOVE ON. It is just a chapter in the past, but don't close the book- just turn the page." Unknown

Irma S. Vanta Nah, burn tat book! burn tat book! burn tat freegin book! LOL
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Nj V
‎"When someone leaves, it's because someone else is about to arrive." — Paulo Coelho (The Zahir)

Irma S. Vanta ‎... who is about to leave, too before someone arrives again, then that someone leaves, another one arrives ... to leave, for someone else's arrival only to leave again, arrive leave, arrive leave ... it's a all matter of time. This vicious cycle.
15 hours ago · Like · 1 person

Nj V
‎"My love for you is a journey; Starting at forever, And ending at never." ~ by Anonymous ~

Irma S. Vanta love cheese!
August 27 at 2:01pm · Like

Nj V
‎"The deepest wounds aren't the ones we get from other people hurting us. They are the wounds we give ourselves when we hurt other people." — Isobelle Carmody (Alyzon Whitestarr)

Irma S. Vanta Thank God, I'm not much of an offender :) ... but the clumsy, silly one :(. But I won't trade places though :). I don't like "deepest wounds".
August 27 at 11:25am · Like · 1 person

Nj V
“There’s always some truth behind ‘just kidding’. Knowledge behind ‘I don’t know’. Emotion behind ‘I don’t care’. Pain behind: ‘It’s okay’.” — Unknown

Irma S. Vanta not meaning what you saying ... and not going beyond a cake's icing or an iceberg's tip. sad sometimes, no. human nature, i guess.
August 24 at 3:00am · Like

Nj V
“Often in life, we forget the things we should remember, and remember the things we should forget.” — Unknown

Irma S. Vanta so that means ...aren't we all wastin' time.
August 24 at 2:58am · Like

Nj V
“If someone wants to be a part of your life, they’ll make an effort to be in it. Don’t bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn’t make an effort to stay.” — Unknown

Irma S. Vanta ‎
1st line ... effort to be in it "consistently" :) ... 2nd line ... sayang space for those who deserve it, di ba? :)

Nj V
“Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love people who treat you right, forgive the ones who don’t, & believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it’d be easy, they just promised it’d be worth it.” — Unknown

Irma S. Vanta
Another good one NJ! … Lemme tell you this … last nyte I was a bad angry wicci. So ohhhh upset that I said I’m gonna do that gypsy junkie again LOL … this morning I woke up … the weather was good, coffee was great, my daughter reading poetry, me cooking tinola for my hun ♥ … God is so good … so then I decided … am takin’ the other side … today I’d be a really really nice sweet pixie … wearing tat halo exactly how it’s supposed to be worn LOL (I usually wear tat “bling” like a hula hoop or during really bad days … I use it like a boomerang hahah).
July 30 at 9:28am · Like · 1 person


Nj V
‎"Looking back, I have this to regret: that too often when I loved, I did not say so." ~ David Grayson

Irma S. Vanta
guilty as charged :(
February 26 at 6:44pm · Like · 1 person

Nj V
‎"The modern fairy tale ending is the reverse of the traditional one: A woman does not wait for Prince Charming to bring her happiness; she lives happily ever after only by refusing to wait for him -- or by actually rejecting him. It is those who persist in hoping for a Prince Charming who are setting themselves up for disillusionment and unhappiness." - Susan Faludi
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Irma S. Vanta
My radical fairy tale sez ... A woman makes a Prince Charming wait . :)
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***NJ and I, we mutually adore each other in FB.  His serious tone somehow grounds my dark sinister ... these threads were like 2 years ago ... these days ... he got more serious, I got darker.  :)

the ride goes on ...

courage.  sincerity.  honesty.  clean hands.  optimism.  bliss.
today, i called it quits.
09-19-2013

patchworks

ok, im getting there. i jusz directed our corporate avp.  who knows, tomorrow, im making movies lol.  meantime, here's my folio of photomontage ...

I, Me, Myself ... and the very special people in my life (past , present, dead, alive ...) ... my real 1st attempt on eCollage.  My FB cover pic of August last year.

Hallow gurls 2012

My daughter's pre-graduation pictorial, and her very first studio photo shoot.  I was a proud mommy, so i made a train of pictures.  

It was so nostalgic putting this one together ... for her 16th bday and my FB cover pic... memoirs of baby Sophie.  (This included my Pregnancy Test with two pink lines (yahoooo!) ... my ultrasound test screamin' IT'S A SOPHIE! ... her hospital wrist tag, a swaddled Sophie (wish ko lang uso na din slings no hahayyy) ... and some of  her nice and naughty pix.

tryin my ol' (what was once sinful  :(  ) webcam, up to no good ...  all so grainy and blurry now (karma lang)  ... and  moi showin off my new haircut c/o Barbie Sungit  ... 

getting my (what was once) clean hands (bad and) dirty ;) ...  this one officially  turned me into a THIEF!  Salamat madame sa kunsitidor na si Ednanei LOL ... that easy, that fast ... bakit ba Open Group eh .... as I always say, anliit lang Gapo ... kabit kabit bituka ng tao LOL ... eh Open Group eh ... cut and paste lang naman, nginig pa ako hahaha ... I was working on this online ... di ko lam kung nakakaiinis o nakakatawa o kinikilig nyahhhaaaa ... basta ang masasabi ko lang ...  we're beautiful together!!!!! ankyut namen!!!! wihhhhhhhhhihhh

Thank you fotor,com :) ... pastel hearts was my funky collage template.  In B and W.  Us ... so Throwback :)

I cant post the final output, nahihiya pa daw ako lol.  Sa FB naka private album din, Display Case in Glass ... Pero ankyut talaga namen here ahahah ... ah ewan!  Sayang!  Kainiz!

His facial moles were very prominent.  I remember in grade 6, tuwing flag ceremony, and there were 2 sections between us,  bago mag bayan magiliw ... lagi ko muna sya hahanapin at the corner of my eye.  Indi ko makita dameng nakaharang kasi humppp ... then id see  one side of  a round brown cheek with a cute little mole smacked right there ... gotcha ... there's my second base.  ansaya ko na.  my day's made.



***On being a Thief Witch!

Ang pagsisisi laging nasa huli ... sana noon ko pa to ginawa!  Now Im left with just 2 photos of him, all the ones with his consent.  I have a favorite pic of him, hinihingi ko yun sa kanya eh, 50 years bago yata ma-download hump ... nagkagulo gulo na di na nabigay.  Sana  ninakaw ko na lang!  That wet look shot sa Sea World.  Parang ang sarap yakapin keber na mabasa din ako LOL

Ok, this happens, this mind set, me Little Misschief ... it's gets worse and really really  biting ... while im not feeling well ... and under really really bad gastric reflux attack.

water brash honey ...

Tuesday's Child is full of Grace

My pluggies are back, and complete.  Got my sleeves, more than what i expected.

Me tired being brunette,  i got bruised this Saturday morn.  (My daughter my colorist and photographer ;) )   ... that's blue black, actually. hehe

Me and Bengbeng :) ... us praying for Sta. Rosa ...

Laine, my marketing assistant, was such a blessing.  We have the same medical condition, but she was more mabait and masunurin.  She takes her medication by the letter, sees her doctor regularly and avoid all the long  list of don'ts.   Her boss, the usual pasaway LOL ...

She ... my inspiration.  For the last 3 days, im back to taking meds,  And I'm feeling much better.  


     

I was born in Rosario, Cavite at Our Savior Hospital.  My mom had a congenital heart ailment so i had to be delivered by ceasarian section.  And for better chances of survival both for mother and child but more for my mom, a unanimous decision in the family ... it had to be painless, laborless, contractionless ... should be a month short from due date.  I was put into an incubator and was given a very slim chance.  I was dark, weighed just 4 lbs, and look more like a little mouse than a newborn baby.  I blew the wits off from my youngest aunt.  Nobody dared to touch me and carry me.  I was so fragile.  I breathed death.  I fought fiercely for my dear life. I was born  21st April  1970.  A favored child of God.  Tuesday's child.


Gee, I would have been a Gemini ... actually I was supposed to be a Gemini LOL.  But I was meant to be a big bad bull. ;)   ... such a Bliss ...

Kitch Witch Diaries: The Search for Roseman Bridge ...

Ok, these got 2 parts.

FIRST PART

I was going over my Timeline photos 2 days ago while working on some project proposal at the office then i chanced upon this posting some time late last year. I got inspired writing about my love affair with this vintage-looking little book my Robert James Waller right after watching the movie for the 2nd time around. The first time i've seen i was just playing film critic, hoping Robert Redford  over Clint Eastwood and not finding Meryl Streep  not sexy enough for a lonely hottie wife,  Francesca Johnson.

Something in my head about working on my review for that Beth Harbison book but couldn't start for the very apparent reason that it was like a sharp edged knife slashing that part of my chest again.  So I'm decided to park it meantime.  especially about Nate ... leaving .. saying ... "I'd rather love you and be alone than love you and be ..."  Damn!  How did writers learn to write so painfully?  So am sayin' ... I'm parkin' this meantime.

So there you go, an automatic review of that love between a man named Robert Kincaid and a woman he called Francesca.

"Mid 90s … just like the rest. I brought and read it along wherever I was. I was never shy with my emotions. I laugh, breakdown, display affection, get pissed like nobody’s watching LOL ... and that story of Robert Kincaid and Francesca Johnson never fails to make me cry like a baby … in that little place I shared with my (then) boyfriend, sa banyo, sa kwarto, sa module ko sa Hall 5 ng CITEM, sa La Salle, sa taxi, sa jeep … literally kahit saan. 2011, I got a DVD copy of that novel and got myself watching it again today which led me to reminiscing vintage living, the smell of suburb, that old truck Harry, the mean yellow dog, Manila paper, rumor mongers LOL, a woman’s impulse shopping prior to major major date LMAO, and that other summer dress I wanted for myself lala, Nighthawk Cummings and his weeping horn, Franny’s fanning her naked bod with fresh air, dark night, by the porch hehe, and my formal introduction to Anais Nin (my new inspiration), normal marriages, normal families, death and coming to terms, those magnificent words of love, that once in a lifetime certainty and a room to dance again."

SECOND PART

All because of this and for the love of goodreads :) ... I went looking for an old Roseman Bridge photo i remember posting somewhere in one of my FB quilts  ... not in my Timeline nor in my favorite number album ... then there ...  suddenly i was there ... a place i hardly i go to these days, "A Lesson on Cooking and Life"  album, one of my many private albums  ... i found all these but no Roseman Bridge.  My broken heart started beating fast ... Oh tear ...

After 41 years and 2 months.
A sweet, spolied brat's first dish.
Pakbet for my Honey. 6/25/2011

proudly in my purple plate  ... that's one good-lookin' menudo ahuh! 7/7/2011

fresh shrimps 101 curt'sy of Honey ko 

26th August 2011 ... a few days before our last day, our last weekend together.  ... ***he even reminded me to ask for beer salt and limit my beer to 3 ... me the obedient honey  ... had only 3 beers that evening. We closed down Mexicali.

one of his songs daw for me 8/17/2011

missing my honey bunch so much 7/6/2011

Table for one. 6th September 2011.

Decision made 23rd October 2011.

Marimar takes a bow LOL ... cookin' with mah "mumps" blue saranggani anklet, mah baby pink hanes, while my hair clamped with pink bushes ... still candles, still coffee 7/9/2011

Mine 8/19/2011

gettin' butchered for the 2nd time! — at Tattoo de Iloco, Laoag City.  6/10/2012

Nike Air Trainer 1.3 Max Breathe MP 11/7/2011— at ♥.

Such a lovely pair! — at ♥.

Binili ko kasi akala ko seryoso sya na gusto nya talaga .. joke time lang pala ulit.  Ang mahal na joke ... tsaka ang sakit ... hayyy

Ayun accumulating dusts and cobwebs in my Ottoman.  Sophie always commenting kung bakit di  pa kinukuha nung nagpabili (my daughter she accompanied me in Bonifacio Global City to get this limited edition pair.) ... sabi ko, nakalimutan na kasi malayo ... she'll turn her back and go on with her chores ... i tell myself softly ... pag namatay ako, sama ko to sa kabaong ko, para mailibing na kasama ako.

i thought of donating Nike here  — atwww.brokenships.com.

The Museum of Broken Relationships grew from a traveling exhibition revolving around the concept of failed relationships and their ruins. Unlike ‘destructive’ self-help instructions for recovery from failed loves, the Museum offers a chance to overcome an emotional collapse through creation: by contributing to the Museum's collection.

i remember still ... 4/18/2012— at theeternalbliss.wordpress.com.

Me ditching the false claims about twin flame.

26 August 2012 ... I was thinking may be I should unfriend all our common friends, but that would be unfair. This pops out on the right side panel of Destine's pixietales. I blocked you because of this. It wasn't your fault. And I wasnt angry. It's just that, its my prerogative. And i still hurt.


That was his prerogative.  To post a profile picture and shout it out to the whole word.  Irregardless of my feelings (as ever, as always) ... It was my prerogative to block him.  I know if didnt matter to him at all.  But it mattered to me.  Mababaw man, pero baka makatulong ... not to see his profile pic with his wife. and  be reminded of the pile of lies, a 41 year old woman of my intelligence,  consciously chose to believe in.  My bad.

Your thoughts can hurt you.  But those are imaginations until you see a picture.

(His memory still makes me cry.  Love sucks isnt it?)

... "cried a river, built something like Roseman bridge ... threw the ashes ... but never getting over ..."

Umuulan sa labas.  Umuulan din sa loob ng kwarto ko.  Kasalanan tong lahat ng Roseman Bridge na yan!  Kainez!

Retiring twogether

Beng and I ... we've gone a long way ... after sending me off to Tanza, Cavite some 20 years ago ... so happy to hang out with her again, though under limited time and very different circumstances ... and so blessed that after twenny years, nothing's changed between us. —

... this photo was taken in Rosario, Cavite, March of 1993. So sweet and gracious of her ... Hinatid pa ako ni Bengbeng from Gapo to Cavite. The following month Manileña na ako.

i was 22 and she was 24. she was trying mean hard to recover from Paul (but couldn't).  i was trying to end an engagement (but couldn't).  we kinda sorta put together by God in some strange circumstances (like office hehe) ... and braved all that to cheer each other up and on.  :).  i was a very young and inexperienced supervisor and she was under me.    we were both very hardworking.  it was just an organizational structure thing that meant nothing to us ...  this and that ... blah blah blah blah Beng and I we hit it off easy and fast.  we became really good friends and until this very day we still are.

we tried to be holy.
we went to church together.  si beng ...  na ligawin ng mga pastor at deacons.  who wants to be courted by men of god LOL ... i always kid her hahaha that theyd go read the bible than make out LOL ... how miserable.

we turn to butterflies in a blink of an eye.
we were sneaking marlboro lights inside my room.  mom was supposed to be still in the office.  then she knocked at my door.  home too soon. hehe ... beng and i we jumped from my bed like frogs and ended up anxiously driving away the smokes like silly flying roaches in panic!

we shared a weird diet.  
had carrots and soya milk for lunch and break time.  our officemates made fun of us LOL  ... they said we were disgusting and hopeless haha ...  but that was all for good intentions and supplications.  me helping beng lose some pounds ... beng trying to help me eat  healthy, gain a few pounds after some massive emotional roller coaster ride plus that really painful orthodontic retainer i was wearing  during that time like a true blooded masochist. :(

we shopped to death.
single naman kami so every payday, we take the Victory Liner and travel all the way to SM City North Edsa and/or SM Megamall to find our "zen" --- Cinderella, Marks and Spencer, Our Tribe, Gift Gate ... and and never fails ... Going Straight for Bengbeng's stubborn curls. Hayy buhay dalaga ...

we invented stalking.
hey that wasn't easy in the early 90s alright.  dot matrix pa ang printer ahaha, wala pang google LOL ;) ... walang CP, ang landline sa Gapo Piltel na walang dial tone lol (how pathetic!!!), ngayon nga madalang eh lalo noon walang taxi sa Gapo, jeep to jeep lang ang pagsunod ahahah. ang hirap letch!  pero for the love of Beng ... one afternoon, after payday again, we had a new itinerary (not Manila shopping malls anymore) ... i forgot, the name of that computer school, it was actually one of the first in Gapo, sa may Gordon Ave. cor. 14th St. yata yun ... Kessing (of course), Gordon Ave., then basketball court then Natividad woohooo am i so familiar with that place ... pag nawala pa naman ako eh ewan ko na lang ...

Yung binoboylet nitong si Marylen eh instructor sa computer school so we went there inquiring as prospective students ahahah --- tadah --- lucky girl this Marylen, boylet was there to entertain our queries.   Natawa ako, ang biba ni Beng, hindi torpe kala mo yun.  And wasnt she so credible.  He invited us to enroll. Ang Beng kuha agad ng registration form ahaha kaso short ang budget ahahah, ako na kunsintidora at bagong sweldo labas ng 1500 lol ... so i wanna make this official, that i actually funded Marylen Dizon's computer education ahahah ... to cut a long story short, they ended flirting with each other for awhile, before she found about he was bipolar and suicidal LOL ... and who was living in with a girlfriend who was a drug dependent.  infatuation lang naman, natapos din.  Good for beng.

Si Beng suportado din kami ni Reden.  But as you know, smokes were cleared between me and Reden.  I ended up marrying Jhun.  She disagreed very very strongly.  Pero sumige pa din ako.  She missed my wedding.    :(  But she was ninang to Sophie. :)  

She married late but had 4 boys.  The three real little boys at si Pastor (nyahhhaa pastor pa din talaga).  One of  my best girl friends is a pastor's wife!  Damn!  Bawal green jokes LOL .. the both of us always prim and proper lol ... sakit sa shoulder blades ahaha

All powered up.  We're back to working together.  Cant wait to share  the news with our ol' DTI Olongapo family.

... must say ...

Isn't such a bliss to watch the sunset from that side of  the planet ;), with one of your most favorite friend in  the whole wide world.

Grandparents Moments

My Profile Pic entry, Grandparents 2012

"Shopping spree in Escolta. Birthday parties in our ancestral house in Tanza. My own little bed in the master bedroom. Cabinets full of toys. Home cooked lunch and snacks personally delivered at the doorsteps of my classroom. Dates at the Tennis Club in Rosario. Sunday mass. Hide and seek at the Public Cemetery LOL. Lessons on Japanese Occupation, Philippine folklore and mythology, love for education, and stories of their youth. My scratch free knees and elbows. Tangle –free hair. My fresh and crispy school uniforms. My nannies. Walking First Aid Kit and anti-mosquito repellant. My school bus. My personal security. My Pep squad. Coddlers. Financiers. My first line of defence. My allies. My Fans. So they say I have his sense of humor  … I wish I have his pride, too. They say I have her brains, I wish I have her grace. All the perks I got and enjoyed for being the first grandchild. There are no trade-offs with grandparents. Thank you for the love and all the wonderful memories, Lolo Tatay and Lola Nanay. I wish we still have you guys around. Love always --- your Ebey."

My Lolo Tatay wearin his typical Kabitenyo swag ala  The Great Profile ... the superrrrr duperrr dark skin, wide forehead, high bridged nose, eyes deep set ... while my Lola was of Filipino-chinese-Portuguese descent was a woman of character, substance and grace.  Their terms of endearment was "Deng", whatever that meant, or may be it was a shorter, more discreet version of "darling", jusz my theory :) ... Lolo succumbed to esophagus cancer in 1979.  Lola never remarried, and joined her "deng" eventually 28 years after.

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Easy Sunday morning, my daughter and I visiting memorials of Lola Meding (mine) and Lola Miles (hers).  Next month, I'm planning to bring her to Naic, for Lolo Tatay.  May be jusz a little pep and preps, small old public cemeteries are oh sooooo far far in many ways from upscale memorial parks.    I've always planned to have my Lolo interred with Lola but with due respect, it was Lolo's dying wishes to be buried together with his parents.

Narra Hills *  Pink Malaysian mums * my daughter with her abuelas * Me complaining about the tree LOL * See that Mac NY Apple right smacked on my lips LOL * our very abled caretaker, Manang Vivian --- she taking care of Lola's and Mama's plot 

Bracken's Jose Rizal*

*My facebook is active from 12 noon - 12 midnight :) --- Kabitenya time LOL ... jusz add me na lang.  I promise to accept.  :) ... but that's just temporary, pag bumalik na sa dagat ang mga talangka sa utak ko, my FB will  be up and running as it should be.  Don't ask why ... you won't get it anyway, dont sweat, i don't get it myself.  LOL  Luka luka pa din ako.  Hey, 'course I cried over you,  for 6 months, but I've long moved on since then.  People do get over some people, ryte.  Ganun talaga.

(Sometimes, though, too ...  you don't  get over some people.  Ganun talaga.  I've conceded to my destiny.)

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Here ... memories of you and Sophie ... and us.

This before or after Munich?  Funny, how you always wanted to join me in my trips and, your Visa, Schengen and US, always get declined those days.  But see, how far you've gone now.  Damn, of all places huh, why there!

Tito Denden and Soph at my old office.  Gearing up for CITEM's Kiddie Xmas party.

Answeet,  Lakas mo dyan, ini spoiled mo kasi, hump.  

That's us and my ol' ITSED crew.  Us jusz droppin by at the party.  You my ever persistent school bus. LOL

First grade, and you noticed me. I was an honor student and smelled sunshine, you my friend, was busy playing marbles, and smelled like sun . Remember this class pic, you brought this to CITEM, and showed proudly to Alma and Thelms  ... hey, I miss you, classmate.  God bless. — in Tanza.
***This is posted in my "Past Life" Album in Facebook

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eto na yung alaga mo ngayon, 1st year college na Tourism Management sa La Salle.  

Time flies ...