Fave lines on Shakespeare's A Midsummer Night's Dream

"You spotted snakes with double tongue,
Thorny hedgehogs, be not seen;
Newts and blind-worms, do no wrong,
Come not near our fairy queen."
A Midsummer Night's Dream, 2. 2


The iron tongue of midnight hath told twelve;
Lovers, to bed; 'tis almost fairy time.
A Midsummer Night's Dream, 5. 1


"So we grew together,
Like to a double cherry, seeming parted,
But yet an union in partition.
Two lovely berries moulded on one stem;
So, with two seeming bodies, but one heart."
A Midsummer Night's Dream, 3. 2


The lunatic, the lover, and the poet
Are of imagination all compact.
A Midsummer Night's Dream, 5. 1

A poet's, a reader's, a gYpsy's saddest ...

Pablo Neruda's Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example,'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is shattered and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before.
Her void. Her bright body. Her inifinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.


Shiela Marie's

I know how hard it is to write...
When your heart is broken apart...
Especially in a blank paper so white...
When you know that the one you love whom you are apart...
Is residing in the arms of another...
Which is supposed to be your arms and shoulder...
Thus, if you can write the saddest lines..
You must've truly loved her all this times...

Mine's

… such a tearful night, knowing nothing has changed between us ... amongst us. Death with a broken heart. Us.

My 2010 Merry Christmas Week

ITSED Reunion. Jhons and Mykee’s grand blow-out for winning the SPRINTS. Met up with Jen at MRT GMA Kamuning Station. Must say I was so stressed prior to that. I finished and submitted three major reports. And that was my last day of work before Christmas. We were at CITEM by 7 PM. Wala pa si driver Honey, Makati traffic was such a pain in the ass. I decided to go ahead so we can reserve a table at Gerry’s Grill. That week was major, major party week for everyone so I bet (and was right), even on a Tuesday, restos were full. What can I say, rare night out with Lani Gel, Bentut on phone patch, Nettchii was late hump bumawi naman sa “slightly used” :), Baes and her Pedro, Anakish and Mike now getting into a little PDA, galing pa din mangalakas ni Flororita hahah, si Honey jobless pero may bagong CRV nakanang! … super hina-hunting si Wenggay para magpahula, Jen, teary-eyed, and me jusz plain HAPPY. By midnight, kiddos wanted to have Starbucks, changed their minds really quickly, and proceeded to Music Bank instead. That was one expensive “song and dance”. But that was one “worth the money” night. We closed down Music Bank at 4 AM. Darnnnnn the songs you sing, they kinda give you away for major major bloopers, and blunders, alaskahan to the maxxxxxxx arrggghhhh



Clowning around with my ol' ITSED family


Something almost busted my bubble at CITEM. Thank God, there was too much happiness in the air. Days like that you just cant ruin easily.

I got Jen’s gift. Me so adoring it.




I’d say, here we go again, another crack at it, a premonition of things to come, of what I wanted to do all these times, but can’t. “The Relaks, Puso Lang Yan, Malayo sa Bituka Planner 2011”. Mabuhay ang mga WITTY! …for they will save the world. ;) One of my favorite pages there, “Ang Fill In The Blanks Love Letter” (Para sa mga pusong galit, iniwan, niloko, pinaasa, pinagpalit sa balingkinitan ang katawan, sinabihang “hindi kita mahal,” “pangit ka.” “it’s not you, it’s me,” na ang tanging kasalanan lang naman e umibig ng tapat: Punan ang mga patlang ng mga salitang akma sa inyong nararamdaman gamit ang pulang tinta.

One of love’s greatest satire. I’m posting it tomorrow. Argggggg

We got our 16th month. I have a brand new two-door frost free fridge. A little bit senti as I gave away my first ever Kelvinator ref who was jusz about the age of Sophie, 13. My garden set’s home, basking under the Cavite sun, some afternoon rain, fresh air and the big blue sky. A pair of strawberry earrings Sophie bought online ( hehehe online shopper na si Sophie). And a new pair of purple pants, too yipeeeeeee.

I hosted noche Buena again. Carrots cooked the carbonara. Sophie and I did the fruit salad. Too many wines and beer lights. The three little boys were oh so rowdy. My heart-to-heart talk with Frankie. Well again we have to be forgiving to the elderly. Hayyyy some things in my family just wont change, wont seem to go away hayyyy All the househelps were on “Christmas vacation” leave, I woke up the next day with a sore foot and a broken back.

We spent early Christmas morning at the Memorial. A bouquet of red roses. And lots and lots of pictures and videos of Sophie and the boys.


Lolas' fave girl chillax!


Wild boys! Nero, Russ and Ian

Thanks to all my friends for Mr. Australia’s new pix.

You asked if what my friends are doing is helping me. I asked if your friends and you stalking me is helping you. Quits lang tayo. We have to make the best of what we have. Sometimes, am not sure anymore if that’s good or bad. But me I dont give a damn!

Last Wednesday, I sad goodbye to irmavanta.blogspot.com. It was such a give away for a blog address so partly it was my fault for a careless, unsuspecting thought that in this infinite highway of information lurks the meanest of the mean, the hard-calloused hearts, fungus faces, the yellows and the green-eyed monsters.

Endings and new beginnings they always come in pair. While I still mourn for the loss. I have to rejoice, for the quick-thinking me (and my supportive friends!) … this Witty saving the world … welcome aboard, mypixietales.blogspot.com!

Tell

... but I ain't telling which ones ;)




... reach for me la la la la means I Love you >:d<



... twist the cap ... and open up ;) ... and i'm telling you :-*

My Year in Status - - - my 1st vavavoom year in Facebook

11 DOGNUTS (running complete)
68 CITEM
18 Homeys
my darling Sophie (always pouting ;))
a handful from Grade School
a few from college
and a hundred plus more from
high school batches 85, 86, 87!
countless messages, in my mailbox and in my wall
27 albums
- my Profile Picture (sometimes me, sometimes Heather, currently Hilda)
- IrMa (all about me, me, me .... random images of me, me, me)
- my Bucket list (the desires of my heart ... easy and long term, of childhood and midlife dreams ;), attainable and pfffft!)
- things I ♥ (a rundown of my personal favorites)
- lovelace (anything seX and seXy arrgghhhh .... uuhmmm artistic)
- tWo (... my favorite number ... this gallery shows you why ;))
- ...life begins (that day i turned 40)
- Salamanca (my lovely hotel at Dumaguete City ... just a personal fave of me and Bok Wenggay, and all the mundane things around the house we want to have for ourselves)
- gurls I heart! (I am bisexual! hahaha)
- my harem (my boys --- Johnny, Matthew, Legolas, Dermot, Diego, Mayer, Joshes (Leonard and tadahhh ....) Groban.
- piXies, wiccis, gypsies, butteflies (my love for these special creatures of God)
- suspended animation (my love for cartoons :))
- my "cheesecake: farm ;) (an evidence of my once addiction to Farmville)
- A Tribute Page: All about Hilda (and Duane Bryers!)
- Sophia Clarisse (a tribute page to my one and only girl)
- MoM (a tribute page to my mother)
- my Homey (Tita Marie, Roray, Ericson, Lem, Egay, Carrots, Franco, Jon Mark, Melujean, the Layco girls of BFRV, the in-laws)
- the next generation (an adorable variety of pampangkins :)
- True friends are like diamonds, precious and rare (A Tribute page to DOGNUTS ... pages of 27 years of friendship and more :)
- Bok and Allan's 3rd anni (my 1st job as official photographer hahaha)
- ma ol' CITEM crew (faces of my good old friends from the Center for International Trade ...)
- the past life (... and my own life that was)
- cold case! (my primary suspects from Jeff, Papeng, arf arf hummmm)
- Baby love (all the stuff I got for Danes but never had to the chance to give on those many birthdays, christmases, valens, halloween I missed, and him spent with someone else :( :()
- For your eyes only (a few stills between me and Bok, between me and Jen, between me and ... ang plantsa, ang sofa, Eres tu, and pader, ang great AHIMA 2006 report, ang breast exposure (of brown CUP B nipples) goshhhhhhhhhhhhhh
- MDLU (this man i love, but is in love with someone else, and getting married January 8 :( :( :( ... photos curt'sy of my paparazzi, sherlock holmes, robinhood friends :))

Salamat Po

So many wonderful things, big and small, trivial and important to be thankful of. This week.

1) First round of blood test was A-OK. Second round is in my prayer list. Officially, today, Dr. Jason declared my “lifelong” medication. And because of that, God blessed me with a year-round of medical benefits from my office. :) God already made provisions, two years before I needed it. God’s faithfulness is so immeasurable indeed.

I have new prescription for painkillers ... I hope it works. Duhhhhh, it's been like 2 hours since I've taken it ... there's no effect ... early stage ... gimme that morphine! :)

2) Having said that, I know, too that I wasn’t really a good girl this November :(. The flesh has been weak, I succumbed from time to time. If it’s a disease, its recurring. If it’s an addiction, it’s relapse. :(

But certainly, always better that my past life. Better is a good word. Meaning this gYpsy has leveled up. :)

3) Been a little helpful with friends who badly needed help. It’s almost Christmas, I don’t like to see broken hearts splattered all over my doorstep or empty tables and penniless pockets. My mother’s generosity, of emotions and otherwise, runs in my veins. Sometimes it hard. But that’s a better predicament than the other way around.

To Moda, Jen, Ellen, Paweng Allan and Thelms … every morning, during my Quiet Time, I seek for God’s comforting hands to be placed upon you.

I thank God for giving me a capable hand and a willing heart to help. I thank God for being powerful and faithful to take care of all of us, all at the same time, all the time.

Isn’t that great?!

4) My vacation’s all set. All ironed-out since last week. In fact, I was offered an extension until early January 2011. I begged off. In fact, I offered to take an event outside Metro Manila. Somewhere farflung. Month long. Or may be, I can just disappear from the face of the earth like a melted salt. And come back to life, a different person (again).

5) After a succession of events for the last two months, this week, I was back to migrating my albums from Friendster to Facebook. My target date remains the same, closed and gone, by 31st of December 2010. :(

FB is rolling out its new profile … I just got it yesterday, this platform is just way too fast for me, hard to cope … so I PMed Ronnie a message, me in panic mode ….

SUBJECT: helpppppp
ronsssss, bakit ganun sa new profile ng FB, I cant find na my old postings of youtube videos, dati nasa link lang yun eh boohoo ... help

(gee wiz … am still one hell of a uselesz hag!)

If there's anything good at this roll-out ... a not-so-new- pic from MyFF ... MFI April 2010, her last :( ... a picture taken by her ... of her Ate Nena's Kuya Tintoy, "and poging si Sir Mark :)" hala ...





:(



6) Today, Saturday, bonding shopping with my girl. Too many new pair of shoes already, so this morning I got her K-Pop ;) something from Von Dutch. Got a little something na din for Bujon and Tita Marie, Soph’s Kris Kringle, Bossing’s :), Ms DDJ and MCT ;). I particularly like my gift for Ms Marl. I planned to get one for myself, too … keeping my fingers crossed, hoping the price will still go down :)

We had lunch at Chef d’Angelo. We were like over-fed pork chops hahaha

I remember one time at the resto, Rob Manila … good old peaceful days … back then when it was still a secret … (sigh sigh sigh) ... Ellen's right, I should not have admitted my feelings, and let this heart die in privacy rather than amongst a den of lions feasting on my poor, helpless cardiac muscle. Darnnnnnnn!

7) Speaking of shopping and Christmas, I think am almost done with my list. For nephs, cousz (except Frankie), Bok, Anakish, MyPiayaya, MyFayeFaye, Mawes, Jen (except the girls and the boy), I ordered pa (from GMA’s Coop) for Mykee’s and Ronnie’s, inaanaks (konti lang naman), and Soph’s ……….. as planned and agreed with her Dad, starting when she turned 13, all our gifts to her will be some sort of an investment also. On her last birthday (13th), we gave her a pair of two-toned (white gold and gold-gold) butterfly (my favorite!) earrings (which I am wearing right now hehehe … I mean … all the time). This Christmas, we got her a bit expensive necklace and pendant (4-clover leaf, rare huh) in pure white gold :).

So may be next week, after the December bonus, I can complete my list, and do some shopping for myself :). Like Nenuco cologne is getting elusive these days. Am trying Landmark Trinoma on Monday. Me not giving up. Nah … not me! And my garden set. Another couch. Wii ... hummmm

8) So what was my treat for myself this week? Uhmmmm, am currently wearing rose painted toes on a freshly scrubbed, blushing pair of heels, my locks on V cut again, my brows neatly trimmed, and I’ve got bewitched on my face ;)

I have a really good discovery. A pair of baby pink Wake Crocs, expensive but worth it. My feet have been a killer lately, my Crocs been very very helpful these days. Uhhhmmm whatelse, for a bargain price, I got a pair (last pair @ Landmark Trinoma), of this really cutesy bitsy cork wedge … in purple!

So Monday, am coming back there hopefully for a bottle of Nenuco and my really nice digital art nails ;) (too bad there was none in MOA, I wanted for Sophie and I to spend some time in a nail spa, but I prefer computerized than manual … so it’s jusz gonna be mommy for the meantime. So this mommy is super eggcited about Monday)!

9) Ooopppsss, am done with Margaret(cute read tat waz) … Now I know better why Sophie was very much into this one. It was very much like us. We're jusz a little upgradely dysfunctional, placed by God, and thriving :) in a very pretentious society that is.

Saturday morning on the way to SM MOA, I started with Kate Allenbaugh’s Chocolate for a Woman’s Heart … “77 Stories of Inspiration to Life Your Heart and Sooth Your Soul” …

10) … and I’ve got a lovely spread of butterflies on my bed. Here …














*This Friday was overspent at the hospital. Bok left for Bicol for her mother-in-law :(. I have a Liquidation Report to get going. And a really tired body that needed honest-to-goodness rest.

So I had to excuse myself this last Friday, from MyPiayaya and the rest of my crew. I couldn’t even promise coming Wednesday, EMD’s party (lousy as it may be, I belong to that boot camp now … so ….). Doctor Jason needs me back very urgently for the second round, so ….

How about this coming Friday, last Friday before Christmas eve? A tower of blue margarita, and I bet, loads and loads of kwento about the now famous CITEM’s Christmas Parteeehhhh.

17th December. Ahuh.

a little bit loss, a bloody big mess

Springkies sez:
Airports are such strange places.
They're a place for waiting, for rushing, for laughing, for crying, for leaving, for coming, for going, for reuniting, for departing, for resting, for working, for staying awake, for falling asleep, for hopes to take off or touch down ...
the things that happen to people in an entire lifetime can happen in one day at an airport.
They're a place for everything.

This Black Fairy gYpsy sez:
I was back at tat small airport again last weekend, with my team, Eu and Ken. The kids were busy with their berries, I was same with Thank God a smaller laptop this time. So I heard this song playing as PR158 was touching down.

Scouting for Girls ;), ahuh.

Untitled

My physical strength was giving away. Traffic is really bad on Saturdays. My flight was JIT but ...

I took 8 DVDs form the shelf. All overnight. Today I still have 2. Am watching one as I write. Soph's complaining, I owe her all the penalty :)

Easy Sundays. Waking up from my Saturday dream. And remembering it really really well. Parang videoke lang, we were walking and walking ohhh sooo endlessly. We stopped, you stopped to pick little pieces of anything along the way. Sometimes I thought they were garbage. Sometimes I thought how sweet of you to pay attention to little details like that. We got tired. And sat comfortably on a bench. My head rested on your shoulders. Your fingers stroke my hair. You lift my chin from time to time to give me little tender kisses. We got to our hotel. And there was blitzkrieg. :)

Yesterday Monday was my day off. I went shopping the whole time with cousz Carrots.

Tuesday today, got up early but still late for work. Everyone in Marketing was busy for kris kringle. Lunch with Ca at Trinoma was called off. Payback time with Smart and Canon who owe me big time :). I have back log cell charges. UCPB cheque for encashment. Liquidation Report. Optical and medicine reimbursement. Post-prod work. Am in-charge of the December Accompli arrggghh. Hummm, and tat One-on-one heart-to-heart with staff.

Wednesday's coop shopping for Christmas fettucine, fruit salad and Ronnie's GMA jacket.

Thursday fasting.
Friday morning blood tests. CITEM cheque in the afternoon.
Hopefully ... but then ...

***

Management offered to extend my vacation until after New Year's eve. I said No. Am skippin’ January 2011 anyway.

A daily serving of Cheesecake!

A little something from JSC, our former Brand Manager for IT Services, whom I had a long, and very good working relationship since the first e-Services @ the PTTC 10 years ago.

My Seven Daily (some time Deadly) Pleasures
(arranged chronologically based on order of occurrence ;) … as a matter of factly … of my delicious cheesecake life:) )

1. My Quiet Time … MY Daily Devotion … an early morning PEP talk with God (even when I haven’t brushed my teeth or combed my hair). It is certainly a pleasure to start the day with a prayer.

2. Bus ride from Dasma Bayan to MRT Pasay Taft (although some used to be painful) … this is when and where I take my luxury sleep … after a brief interlude with my book (me currently reading Are you there God, It’s me, Margaret) … and my IPOD on … another 2 hours of golden slumber is such a bliss.

3. In between my day, I get sweet, thoughtful messages from far away, long-time friends. Friendship when real, genuine is indeed a blessing. Each morning when I talk to God, I make sure I give thanks for such a gift.

4. After Office. I look forward coming home … to my daughter … to my friends. Evenings are beautiful when you are surrounded by people you love and loves you in return. :)

5. Shower! Jusz before 40 winks … such a delight! (clean water from my sunflower shower and my usual ritual of facial night moisturizer, eye cream, leave-in night serum on my long wavy locks ;), Johnson baby powder and lotion all over, baby powder scent petroleum jelly on my feet, tadahhhh and a splash of Denenes/Nenuco/Babe Bench’s Ice mint or Bubblegum)

6. There really is no substitute sweetener for my “lambingan” bedtime moments with Sophie. We have a new … a little bit pricey bed ;) … on a veneer wooden box in black coffee ;) … how lovely it is to doze off and get dreamy in one sweet tight embrace.

7. This online journal. The pleasure I get from writing … the pleasure of knowing that you’re listening … knowing that you have been reading. My pleasure.