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A Runners Version of Soul-Shock*
(*Moe's metaphysical blog)

Soul-Shock: The pain and distress the soul experiences when your Twin-Flame abandons you.

There are some great materials describing “soul shock” on the internet. My favorite is by Steve Gunn and can be found at his site www.stevegunn.net

Let’s talk about the Runner though. Anyone with a level of spiritual awareness has trouble understanding how two people can experience a deep soul connection, share the bliss, joy and divine love that these relationships offer- only to have one partner run.

The mind, heart, soul… no aspect of our being comprehends this. Someone would choose to leave the most amazing thing that can happen between individuals? Yes, they do… we’re calling them Runners.

Runners seem to reach a road block. After a period of ecstasy and connection, the Runner leaves. It can be sudden, or there can be a gradual distancing. Either way, they leave the “aware” partner in the dust- shaken to the core and confused.

What we don’t talk about a lot- because there is little information on Runners, is that they experience a different kind of shock.

A Runner runs for complex reasons but an element they all have in common is that they are thrown-off by the intensity of the relationship. They do not have time to adapt, it’s there right off the bat, the whole ‘soul package’. They don’t intellectually understand it. They feel it, but that’s the problem. Their head and heart/soul are not in alignment.

These same people would be comfortable sticking around if it was no more than physical chemistry. They would be ok if it was only friendship. They would probably be ok if it had been a slow evolution from curiosity to lust to friend to relationship to “soul partner”.

What they can’t wrap their head around is that in one human being (their Twin Flame) they are presented with a package that includes all of those things- at the start. No effort required.

They can’t process how this can exist! Even if they believe in such a thing as an ideal soul-mate, they aren’t spiritually prepared to face him/her so they back off & artificially generate a “slow evolution”.

Think of it this way. If they did not feel the same intensity as their partner, they’d be there. Does that sound backwards? Going into shock makes people do things they wouldn’t do in any other circumstances.

Runners can’t seem to explain their own behavior. They don’t know why they act the way they do… if you can get them to talk while they’re in the heat of the confusion, you might hear “I’ve never acted like this in my life. I can’t explain it. I don’t know who I am anymore or why I’m behaving this way. This is not the man/woman I am. I don’t know what’s wrong with me”.

They seem aware they are not themselves but are helpless to stop.

It is a process. It’s tempting to call Runners stupid, isn’t it? What is obvious to us is confusing to them. What is joyful to us is frightening to them. They are fearful that what they feel is not real, that they are making it up & nobody could possibly love them that much. Surely it must be a trick.

They are fearful that if they say yes to a relationship, it could crumble and they could never recover. If they didn’t mutually love their Soul Mate/Twin Flame, they wouldn’t have the fear. Do you see? You can’t loose what you don’t choose.

So you see, while it seems ridiculous, the soul-shock a Runner causes is because they are in shock themselves.

If it gives you any peace, imagine your Runner interacting with anybody BUT you. In your mind’s eye see them. A normal person behaving normally, right?

Does this not tell you that either one of two things are happening? Either this is not your Twin-Flame and they are an idiot and you can be happy that they have left.

Or… this is indeed a high level Twin-Flame whose soul did recognize you, but their mind needs time to catch up.



(last night before going to bed, i put a little amount of courage, and went back to our last sweetest thread @ FB ... August 13, Friday, a few days after I unfriended you. Our thread pushed deeper in my inbox, and that little box with an empty profile pic, it bears your name but a page no longer clickable. I couldn't bear it, that fast, I was in tears.) It was so good, that it hurts so bad. Our first (and last) time to see each other move on cam :) ... and may be use a little wish, and make love like normal human beings do. :)

Bok went online, jusz about the right time for me to close that window. And I couldn't help but cry to her. How much i still miss you despite of your disappearance and complete abandonment of me. She tried to dismiss the thought, and instead mentioned that Mark invited her to go and see his mom's painting exhibit. She promised she will for the love of me :) ... yeah Mark, that Mark ahuh. She said she wanted to bring me with her :) ... I begged off. She shifted and bragged about her plates ...

I remember only three instances in my life ...not a howl, but the painfullest, most silent cries I've let go in this lifetime. First with Emer, second was when my mom died, and this time with you.

It tears every piece of me apart. And each time, I wanna die. First time, in my life, there was something, I wanna die on. My hands up. White flag up in the air. The towel's thrown. That's it, I quit!)